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// kovacs

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if there's mutual interest, why not?

[ too bad, he answered. ]

of course it's not simple. but the difference is if something's got a chance, then you go for it. if it's dead in the water, don't waste your time. if you gotta spend that much time rolling around in the could or should or would, then it's just a daydream. you end up just some asshole pining for something you're never gonna get. and there's your unrealistic fantasy.

[ like this asshole. ]

But what if something's got a chance, but the timing isn't right?
What if they're not ready? What if you're not ready?
What if if it could be something really great? You wouldn't want to wait?

[ when he answers, he's not even sure if he means to say it or if it's just the thought link responding before he gets the chance to consider — ]

got nothing worth waiting around for.

Yet.

[ marta's answer is deliberate. ]

[ at least he stops his thoughts from wandering down a negative path before it can be conveyed here. ]

you're cheerfully optimistic. you sure you haven't been reading too much of that chippy romance?

[ she knows an attempt at deflection when she sees one, and marta's always been a little too merciful at times. ]

How can I, when you've borrowed them all?

[ he's mastered dodging enough that even stray thoughts won't let him down. ]

might just be trying really hard to get you to rub off on me.

[ meanwhile marta's only saving grace right now is the ear piece's apparent inability to translate internal screaming. ]

Listening to me would be a much easier way, you know...

[ he doesn't even mean to make it sound like it might, but he thinks that might make it even better. ]

then i'd just be making it easy on you. you want to boss me around, gotta work for it.