[ he honestly doesn't need to look right at her to know that this is probably hard for her to hear, but he can see the way she tries to turn away, catching the faint hint of wet on her cheeks as she tries to wipe tears away.
a part of him feels guilty, not for telling her, but for not catching it soon. all those months living with the man and aside from assuming him to be peculiar and a bit of a reclusive oddball (who seemed to strangely draw a lot of women around), kovacs didn't think it was worth diving too deep to try figuring him out.
daisy mentions almost dying and his eyes turn away. that day on the train, plenty of their group was at risk too. he'd almost lost marta. a few seconds more and she and him both would have been blown to shreds with the cars.
kirigan mentioned someone "very special" almost getting killed. was it daisy he was talking about? ]
It ... wasn't Newt. Maybe if it'd really had been him on that train, fucking us all over on purpose, I'd have pulled the trigger myself. But it wasn't him inside that body. And Kirigan didn't want to believe that. I don't think he'd have cared either way.
[ and in that moment, alina's words surface in his mind again, prompting another sigh. ]
[In a way that most other people here can't relate to. What it's like to be completely out of control of your body, but witness everything that's happened. Remembering what it felt like to hurt someone you wouldn't. The guilt eats away at you.
She straightens up a bit when he mentions hearing more warnings, her heart sinking even further.]
[ he thinks of alina reaching out to him almost as soon as kirigan had appeared with news about viveca's body. kirigan can't be trusted with it, she'd said, like he'd been prepared to somehow use it as a bargaining chip. lining it up with what he'd already learned about the man by then, it seemed a lot easier to believe.
but alina had been careful about what she'd said to him then — i want to make sure i'm not trusting anyone on this ship who would make excuses for him. somehow, he doesn't think it'd be a good idea to attach her name to his warnings. not from his mouth, at least. ]
I don't know the details, for sure. Just that he has the tendency to make plans and he's capable of using people as tools to get it.
[ that it's likely he's done it before. if alina ever tells him what went on between them. ]
If he's planning something now, I can't say for sure, but I'm definitely keeping an eye on him to make sure he doesn't pull anything. But it'd be a good idea for you to stay as far away from him as possible. You especially.
[ he doesn't have enough on kirigan's past to spread those details so certainly, not until he talks more with alina to find out just what kind of man he really is.
though daisy laughs, his own face remains stern. ]
It's not about hurting you. Not physically.
[ he steps further towards her, expression serious. ]
Daisy, you were ready to fight everyone through the earpieces to defend him. I know you didn't know everything then, but whatever you do know now, it doesn't change that you two have plenty of history. If he really is someone dangerous, he probably wouldn't hesitate to use that against you. To manipulate you into believing his side.
[ it's not daisy's fault. relationships — they can be a tricky thing. he's been manipulated by people he trusted most. he knows how easy it can be to fall for something just from wanting to believe it so badly. ]
Right now, until we get a better idea of what might be going on, it's safer for you to just avoid talking to him completely.
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a part of him feels guilty, not for telling her, but for not catching it soon. all those months living with the man and aside from assuming him to be peculiar and a bit of a reclusive oddball (who seemed to strangely draw a lot of women around), kovacs didn't think it was worth diving too deep to try figuring him out.
daisy mentions almost dying and his eyes turn away. that day on the train, plenty of their group was at risk too. he'd almost lost marta. a few seconds more and she and him both would have been blown to shreds with the cars.
kirigan mentioned someone "very special" almost getting killed. was it daisy he was talking about? ]
It ... wasn't Newt. Maybe if it'd really had been him on that train, fucking us all over on purpose, I'd have pulled the trigger myself. But it wasn't him inside that body. And Kirigan didn't want to believe that. I don't think he'd have cared either way.
[ and in that moment, alina's words surface in his mind again, prompting another sigh. ]
Since then, I've heard more warnings. About him.
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[In a way that most other people here can't relate to. What it's like to be completely out of control of your body, but witness everything that's happened. Remembering what it felt like to hurt someone you wouldn't. The guilt eats away at you.
She straightens up a bit when he mentions hearing more warnings, her heart sinking even further.]
What do you mean?
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but alina had been careful about what she'd said to him then — i want to make sure i'm not trusting anyone on this ship who would make excuses for him. somehow, he doesn't think it'd be a good idea to attach her name to his warnings. not from his mouth, at least. ]
I don't know the details, for sure. Just that he has the tendency to make plans and he's capable of using people as tools to get it.
[ that it's likely he's done it before. if alina ever tells him what went on between them. ]
If he's planning something now, I can't say for sure, but I'm definitely keeping an eye on him to make sure he doesn't pull anything. But it'd be a good idea for you to stay as far away from him as possible. You especially.
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[Look, Daisy is all for privacy. But hiding something like this? When they're all stuck here unable to escape him? Not a great idea.
She laughs bitterly when Kovacs warns her to stay away,]
I'd love to see him even try to hurt me.
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[ he doesn't have enough on kirigan's past to spread those details so certainly, not until he talks more with alina to find out just what kind of man he really is.
though daisy laughs, his own face remains stern. ]
It's not about hurting you. Not physically.
[ he steps further towards her, expression serious. ]
Daisy, you were ready to fight everyone through the earpieces to defend him. I know you didn't know everything then, but whatever you do know now, it doesn't change that you two have plenty of history. If he really is someone dangerous, he probably wouldn't hesitate to use that against you. To manipulate you into believing his side.
[ it's not daisy's fault. relationships — they can be a tricky thing. he's been manipulated by people he trusted most. he knows how easy it can be to fall for something just from wanting to believe it so badly. ]
Right now, until we get a better idea of what might be going on, it's safer for you to just avoid talking to him completely.
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She understands his hesitation, but right now she is so beyond livid with him, and herself for not seeing it sooner.]
I want nothing to do with him.
[And as firmly as she wants to say that, her voice wavers with the overwhelming feeling of hurt.]