[Clara's typically spectacular at keeping her thoughts under control. She's not about letting an unfiltered thought process wind up in someone's lap. But when Kovacs tells her this, she's unable to keep her initial reaction under control. Anger burns instant and bright, a raging fire that has a stream of cursing sent through the earpiece to him.
When she realizes it, she forces herself to calm down.]
Then it's even better that you were there to protect him.
I'm not going to leave Newt's side. Not for a while. If anyone else wants a go at him, they'll have to go through me.
[ it's not a surprising reaction. clara's typically the type to get her thoughts known when they're as loud in her head like that. he knows if it came down to it and she saw kirigan in the hall, she'd just as easily go off right at him. ]
i know. no one'll touch him if you're there.
[ and he means that. clara's got plenty of strengths that have little to do with the physical. ]
he ended up helping to get him out in the end but it doesn't change the fact that he was consciously ready to take out one of our own.
i just think he's worth keeping an eye on for a while.
he's worth keeping an eye on for the rest of the time we're here.
him and anyone close to him, that might make excuses for what he tried doing
[It's not that Clara is necessarily a vindictive person. It's not even that she wants trouble with Kirigan. But she definitely is having trouble processing the fact that things have gotten this bad.]
I thought we'd have a bit longer before we started turning on one another.
[ clara's words already give him some concern. him and anyone close to him. he knows she has a point, and he's the first one to make sure to pay attention, to observe any details that would hint at betrayal, at turning on the team.
but he's hesitant to cast judgment so quick either. it would mean labeling suspicion on people like alina or daisy, people he knows from his own experience to have decent intentions.
not that she's wrong. when the pressure's up, when tensions rise and the time comes between salvaging achieving their own deal over keeping another member of the team alive, anyone could spin on their intentions. ]
i'll keep a watch on kirigan and anyone else but make sure not to throw around accusations.
if anyone starts to openly suspect each other, it might make the situation worse than it already is. we need to keep a handle on things now that newt's back to normal. people are tense enough as it is after what happened.
If someone goes after him again, I won't do them the favor of staying quiet about it. I'm not looking to accuse anyone of anything. Particularly if it could hurt Alina.
[And really, that's the only reason she hasn't marched off to go yell at kirigan herself. Her loyalty to Alina and not wanting to cause her anger or upset.]
But I'm not looking to start fights, if that's what you're worried about. Believe it or not, I actually have some semblance of self-control with the things that come out of my mouth. I'm not so stupid or impulsive as to think that making public accusations are going to get anything accomplished.
[There's a long sigh as she switches over so he can hear her voice. She's exhausted and depressed, and a bit irritable on top of that. But no matter how frustrated she is with what's happening around them, he doesn't deserve the brunt of her temper.]
Look, I'm just...really not doing great right now. I promise to be careful, as long as you do the same.
[ there's his own sigh as she switches it over, not annoyed that she has, but feeling a bit more of that weight of her exhaustion once he can hear her. ]
I know. It's — it's been a lot these days.
[ for her, especially, knowing how much she cares about newt, knowing how much she's always trying so hard to keep everyone as safe as they can be, knowing she'd do anything to protect those she cares about.
and for a time — well, they didn't know what would happen to their friend. for all that he's maintained his usual composure, kovacs had been devastated with his own worry for a time. especially after catching his own roommate try to snuff him out. ]
I'll stay on my toes. And I'll keep alert. I promise. [ he means it. after everything, it's hard not to be. ] Just ... get your sleep, alright? I'll switch out with you to stay next to him every once in a while. You don't have to do it alone.
[She promises, sounding dry in response but the sincerity is there if he listens hard enough. He's done enough for her, worries about her enough. She doesn't need to add to that by making him think she isn't taking proper care of herself.]
But if you need anything, you'll reach out, right?
[Sometimes she worries he isn't aware it's a two way street. She's got his back, just the same as he has hers.]
[ he knows that he can likely sound like a hypocrite, with his usual lack of sleep, lack of rest, but he's actually trying to do better about that. quite the lesson for takeshi kovacs — caring for his own well being as much as anybody else's. it might be a first, but — ]
[She's quiet as she lets those last words sink in. He doesn't need to be more specific, she gets the meaning in what this is.]
Together till the end.
[Through all the ups and the downs, their bond has come out on the other side as a solid friendship. Which means that the things that either of them go through, they can rely on one another to get through it.]
I'll talk to you soon, Tak.
[There's a moment of hesitation, where it seems like she might say something else. But then her end of things disconnects. They both need their rest.]
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When she realizes it, she forces herself to calm down.]
Then it's even better that you were there to protect him.
I'm not going to leave Newt's side. Not for a while. If anyone else wants a go at him, they'll have to go through me.
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i know.
no one'll touch him if you're there.
[ and he means that. clara's got plenty of strengths that have little to do with the physical. ]
he ended up helping to get him out in the end but it doesn't change the fact that he was consciously ready to take out one of our own.
i just think he's worth keeping an eye on for a while.
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him and anyone close to him, that might make excuses for what he tried doing
[It's not that Clara is necessarily a vindictive person. It's not even that she wants trouble with Kirigan. But she definitely is having trouble processing the fact that things have gotten this bad.]
I thought we'd have a bit longer before we started turning on one another.
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[ clara's words already give him some concern. him and anyone close to him. he knows she has a point, and he's the first one to make sure to pay attention, to observe any details that would hint at betrayal, at turning on the team.
but he's hesitant to cast judgment so quick either. it would mean labeling suspicion on people like alina or daisy, people he knows from his own experience to have decent intentions.
not that she's wrong. when the pressure's up, when tensions rise and the time comes between salvaging achieving their own deal over keeping another member of the team alive, anyone could spin on their intentions. ]
i'll keep a watch on kirigan and anyone else
but make sure not to throw around accusations.
if anyone starts to openly suspect each other, it might make the situation worse than it already is.
we need to keep a handle on things now that newt's back to normal.
people are tense enough as it is after what happened.
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[And really, that's the only reason she hasn't marched off to go yell at kirigan herself. Her loyalty to Alina and not wanting to cause her anger or upset.]
But I'm not looking to start fights, if that's what you're worried about. Believe it or not, I actually have some semblance of self-control with the things that come out of my mouth. I'm not so stupid or impulsive as to think that making public accusations are going to get anything accomplished.
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[ is this where it starts? tension between him and clara? that's the last thing he needs. ]
i'm just saying, be careful.
if someone else makes a move, we'll be there to stop it.
i won't let him or you or anyone else get hurt for this.
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Look, I'm just...really not doing great right now. I promise to be careful, as long as you do the same.
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I know. It's — it's been a lot these days.
[ for her, especially, knowing how much she cares about newt, knowing how much she's always trying so hard to keep everyone as safe as they can be, knowing she'd do anything to protect those she cares about.
and for a time — well, they didn't know what would happen to their friend. for all that he's maintained his usual composure, kovacs had been devastated with his own worry for a time. especially after catching his own roommate try to snuff him out. ]
I'll stay on my toes. And I'll keep alert. I promise. [ he means it. after everything, it's hard not to be. ] Just ... get your sleep, alright? I'll switch out with you to stay next to him every once in a while. You don't have to do it alone.
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[She promises, sounding dry in response but the sincerity is there if he listens hard enough. He's done enough for her, worries about her enough. She doesn't need to add to that by making him think she isn't taking proper care of herself.]
But if you need anything, you'll reach out, right?
[Sometimes she worries he isn't aware it's a two way street. She's got his back, just the same as he has hers.]
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I will.
[ he means it too. he's trying to do his best. ]
We're — we're in this together.
[ this being more than just newt. ]
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Together till the end.
[Through all the ups and the downs, their bond has come out on the other side as a solid friendship. Which means that the things that either of them go through, they can rely on one another to get through it.]
I'll talk to you soon, Tak.
[There's a moment of hesitation, where it seems like she might say something else. But then her end of things disconnects. They both need their rest.]